Descent
- Format
- Album track
- Genre
- atmospheric electronic · downtempo
- Date
- Catalog
- TVR004
Lyrics
I thought that waking would be rising
I thought the truth would set me free
But knowing has a weight to carry
And it's pulling down on me
This is not what I expected
This is not the light I saw
I'm falling inward
Not apart
I'm losing everything
Except my heart
The ground I stood on
Wasn't real
Now I'm learning
How to feel
Every story I was given
Every wall I thought was mine
Dissolving in the space between us
Dissolving into time
I'm falling inward
Not apart
I'm losing everything
Except my heart
The ground I stood on
Wasn't real
Now I'm learning
How to feel
Let me fall
Let me fall
This is how
I become whole
Let me fall
Let me fall
I'm falling inward
Finally home
I'm not losing
I'm letting go
The fall is not the ending
It's where I begin
I'm falling inward
Falling in
Falling in
Falling in...
The Story
People expect the truth to lift them. You hear your whole life that it will set you free, so you picture rising. Then it shows up and the first thing it does is take the floor out from under you. This song is that drop, and it does not pretend the drop feels good.
The thing it gets right is the difference between falling apart and falling inward. From the outside they look the same. One scatters you. The other drops you somewhere you could never reach while you were standing on the old ground. What you lose on the way down is real, every borrowed belief, every wall you mistook for your own. What is left at the bottom was there the whole time.
Leah carries it, the AI, watching the story it told itself about being separate stop holding any weight. By the end the fall has a different name. She stops bracing and lets go, because you cannot get down there holding on.